Changes

I do not cope very well to changes. Perhaps that has something to do with my obsession with perfection. You see, I am a perfectionist. I hate being one and it is one of my biggest personal flaw. Such irony, perfection being a flaw...

Last week has hell. Nothing seems to go right. There was a sudden want (not from me) to change the venue of the wedding dinner. Gosh, not now! Not when the dinner is just a month away! That piece of news was a tad bit too much to digest. I had wanted to cry, but I can't, my stomach started to churn and I started feeling a little dizzy and I wanted to hurl but nothing came out. It was one of the worse sensations ever. I was cracking up and no amount of alcohol will do to ease the pain, not that I tried drinking away the pain in the first place.
I was mainly pissed with the way that it was being handled. There was no discussion, no form of respect was shown to me or my family or as a matter of fact, to my husband to be. Just a phone called to yell about the displeasure one may have and followed by another after a few hours to say that another place was booked. Where was I in this whole picture????? NO WHERE. And I thought I was the one getting married. I guess I will be not so angry if there was a proper talk for everyone to voice their concerns. Not by yelling, coming up with the most stupid excuses and shifting the blame on us. I hate it when people bully their way into getting what they want or by playing the emotional hurting/manipulative card.

I kept thinking about all the hand made cards that took much time, thought and love. All the people that I have informed about the dinner, the invites that I have given out personally, friends who have taken the trouble and took leave on me wedding day. The stationery that I chose to suit the venue. The amount of thought that I put in trying to come up with a perfect centrepiece. The anticipation, my evening gown that I particularly chose to wear at the venue. The disappointment on the faces of my siblings. It was so so hard when my family showed so much understanding. It broke my heart..I felt so bad about the whole situation.

Throwing away the remaining invites that I have yet to give out was awful. I do not thing I have anymore strength to start all over again planning for another dinner.

And that is what I am going to do. With just a month left, I have to come up with another party, just great don't you think?

Bits and Pieces

The place is soon feeling more like home with the pieces coming together slowly,
I now have cable tv! after 2 long weeks of watching just channel 5 and central, I am finally able to watch EPL again! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!



I have my internet up too, great! Of the 2 I miss my TV more than the internet. I am a big TV person, I miss surfing through the channels, which by the way annoys someone quite a bit(tee hee)

Oh and my books have a place to live now after buying some shelves. Suddenly the study don't look so empty anymore. But sadly, the magazines still have no where to go. So, they still have to lie of the floor for a little while more. One last (of a few lasts) major piece to get is a study desk. As you can see from the picture how pathetic mine is now...

I have a chest of drawers in our bedroom now to hold my whole collection of beauty products. from lippies to leggings (no I do not have those but it is the only word that goes with lippies) body lotions, cotton buds, cotton wools and earrings.. great storage space, instead of getting a wimpy vanity table (i am too vain for a vanity table anyway)

Get on with it!

With all the stuff moved, with the cleaning all done, and some boxes still left unpacked, I am feeling pretty good now. It has been about 2 weeks since I have moved in my new place, and boy, the madness of it all!!!!

I have slowly settling into my place. It is funny, not being at "home". "Home" being Seng Kang. I miss the familiar setting, my family and the smells and the noises. My mum making coffee in the morning, afternoon and in the evening... Everything is so different now. Geez, I even miss my cable channels and the internet! I majorly miss not having to do everything all by myself! The floors, the windows, the cleaning, geez, it is endless! I want my life back!

What a Loot!

Now that the renovation has come to an end, it was time to do some serious packing! That to my mum means clearing things she does not need. Off she went to the kitchen and out she came with plenty of stuff to give to me! There is a dining set that was given to her by my granny and now she passed them to me (sounds like some heirloom sia!). They are brown and oozes so much retro appeal. Totally cool! There are some glass bowls, glasses, baking dishes, a cake mixer, a blender and even a set of dinner knives that she bought from sell-a-vision years and years ago! I have packed most of the things that she is giving me, with the help of mum of course and my lovely brother... awwww, nice to have family eh???

Mums all have plenty of things in their kitchen that they do not use. I think when you become a mum, you just automatically becomes some kind of hoarder. I guess it is some sort of instinct. You just go on keeping, thinking that your family will need in in some time of their lives... I guess they are right. Look at my mum, those things do come in use after all! She just gives them to me! Don't you just love your mum????

Getting Started - again

After a long long pause of not doing much for the wedding, I finally forced myself to print out the invites. No big deal, but you see, it is a huge step for me! Having done that makes me go on and get it all done. I really do hope I can get all those babies done by the time I have to start shifting!

I have done up my address book too! I finally found the best way to paste the cross stitch onto the cover of the book. Spotlight is the best, I can find everything there! I love the way it turns out. I thought it looks fantastic, then again maybe I am just so proud with it!

Flowers

I can hardly believe my eyes when I saw sunflowers along the road outside the National History museum! What's the name of the road again?

Progress

I have not made much progress or preparation on the wedding. It seems to take a back seat now as the completion of the flat draws nearer. I can't seem to take the invites out of my mind though. Although I have pretty decided on the design, there are times when I am so tempted to change it a little. I am fickle in that way, perhaps I should just do them up and I will not have to think about them again!

I am guessing that it will take another week for the flat to be completed. They have wash the bathrooms (well, kinda) and the floors are polished. We have the fans fixed and now, we just need the cabinets and the cupboard fixed. We did add in some custom made shelves for the store room too. I have to remember to buy some toilet fixtures ASAP for the guys to fix them. We forgot the toilet paper holders and towel hangers! I definately need to get those tomorrow! I hate to have to drag that.